||[Apr. 19th, 2005|09:32 am]
|||||Silence to helps me with my Thoughts||]|
Awwww I'm so sad! I haven't written in livejournal but I thought i needed to today hahaha 3 months or longer since my last entry. I just realize that my first year in college is about to end. Even though I think it is the same as when you finish a year in high school, it isnt. Alot of things will be different. Alot. First, Jamie is moving out :(. this has its pros and its cons. I was annoyed with when Jamie was supermom, and wanted to clean everything and using my labtop but she told me last night that she wanted to go to cheesecake factory one time this week. I remember all our talks and the funny things she said, she wasn't the best roommate, but she was a good friend. I always went to her for advice. It'll suck next year, when I come back to see that she is not there anymore. Ugh i hate saying goodbye, i really do. Its one of my weaknessess. And its not just jamie, i think its everybody. I dont know if the same people will be here next time. you know. even though chris had his moments, he won't be here-he'll be in FSU/or whatever community college is up there. Ill miss those halo games with chris, and just going to his apt., Tuna is leaving too, and I remember that game we played before and those grill times at his house. Danny is leaving pegasus pointe too, not that i was ever at his house, but the fact that all of us are going our seperate ways is sad. I remember that time we all went to the beach that really bad night where that week was soo bad. "up all night" and go to the beach. That was terrible, but it was a good memory. I guess I am ok with "kings" people leaving, since that is what i always seek, but that were some good times we had. And I noticed that towards the end of this year, everything that we did in the beginning of the semester (the same people that I hung out with) were slowly growing apart, but you remember those times you had with them and you cherish them. I wont be back at the dorms next year, visiting, because it will be a new group of freshman. Some people will be there, but everyone will be spread out in apts. off campus. Thats the reason why it will be different next year-everyone , i mean everyone will be away from each other. Plus the classes I'm taking next year, are not gen eds so i wont really see my class in most of them except those in my field. It makes me wish i lived on campus this year,but then it doesn't. I can't regret anymore why things didn't work out the way they did, because God had a purpose for it. I am looking forward to RUSH next year, and for 7:30am classes--year right. Next year will be just sooooo filled, thats why I am not working at Shells anymore. Can you believe it, ashley omega, had a job as a hostess. Never would imagine it. This summer will be good at home, but of course ill miss my friends at school. Cheers to a year of studying my brains off, making friends that change the way i think, being indpendent and able to handle it, and for a feeling that college can't be lived in one year but more to come, its like you have a taste of it, but you haven't really finished the whole drink. PLEASE GOD LET Me FINISH THIS YEAR WITH GOOD GRADES!